This is it. We are down to the wire. Approximately 14 hours until departure. Am I packed? Just barely. Am I forgetting anything? Most likely. Am I ready? Not on your life.
I've had to say goodbye to a lot of people this week. A LOT of people. I've had meetings, appointments, and coffee date after coffee date after coffee date. (Seriously, a butt-load of coffee dates.) But it didn't really hit me that I was leaving until last night. I broke down. Saying goodbye to my nephew this morning was probably one of the hardest things I've done. I can't even imagine what saying goodbye to my family tomorrow is going to be like. They are my best friends. My support system. Leaving them will be like leaving my hearts behind. But there's no turning back now.
A theme in my life recently has been courage. As the Doctor says, "Courage isn't just a matter of not being frightened, you know. It's being afraid and doing what you have to do anyway." I love that quote because that is exactly what I'm trying to do. I am very afraid of this major life change I'm making. Will I get the job? Will I make friends? Why do I have to talk to people?! But I am going to do it anyway, because I don't want to live a life full of what-if's and regrets. I want to live out my dreams and see my ambitions come to fruition. And I know I'm not alone in this. I have my family, my friends, and God is still with me. Even in California. "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
Never forget that the family in California is a HUGE support system just waiting to be tapped! And, even if there are no posts here it is because a lot of people know how to read blogs but not near as many people know how to successfully post on them... not entirely sure why that is. Love you so much, glad you are here and proud you are being brave and "seizing the day" (obviously a shameless Newsies plug and quote)
ReplyDeleteThank you! It's true, there are so many people here willing to help or just hang out. =) I love you too, thank you for everything you're doing for me! (Ahh Newsies...)
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